MY LAST SHOT AT POKER

Hi all,

As you can see in the title this will be my last shot at poker. I have been playing poker for the last 8 months (I know I’m relatively new to poker, I started in the beginning of the pandemic) and I’m a winning player. I have never been able to build a big bankroll because I’m starting to panic at the smallest downswing which results in me withdrawing 75% of my bankroll when this occurs.

Recently I started grinding NLH 6-max cashgames and I'm slowly starting in being a decent winning player in this format. One problem, I keep tilting away all my winnings. Also when this happens I experience issues with me thinking I’m just not good enough to make it etc. In the last few weeks I made several small deposits on stars and every time when I had reached the point where I tripled/quadrupled up I tilted away my whole bankroll in one session. I also recently had COVID-19 which resulted in me being extremely tired and not been able to focus, problem is I still decided to play sometimes when actually not able to play.

Again this will be my last shot at poker, this time I will try to be very disciplined and set some goals to make this work and avoid punting my money away, posting this (the pressure of you guys ;P) will hopefully help me in achieving my goals.

Life/poker goals and rules to myself:

- Take a break after playing for 1 hour
- Go running 3 times a week
- Go to the gym 3 times a week (gyms are currently closed in my region due to COVID-19 so I will start off with some pushups etc.)
- Study 30 minutes before playing
- Stop playing for at least 1 hour when losing 3.5 buy-ins or when on tilt
- Strict BR management which I will keep you guys posted on
- Consume alcohol ones a week max (I am not an alcoholic but alcohol really affects my focus and sleep)
- Try to see my friends at least ones a week (I’m dealing with depression for the last 4 years, recently I started to feel very awkward around people which results in me avoiding my friends and not going outside, I’m trying to work on this in general)

Tomorrow I will start the challenge with a deposit of around $20 on stars. I will be playing mainly cashgames but maybe some SNG’s/tourneys in the future as well.

I will be posting graphs and hands daily. Feel free to leave a comment or suggestion!

Also let me know if anyone wants to study with me. Nobody of my real life friends play poker and I have basically no one to discuss hands/strategies with.