Journey to high stakes BLOG thread

Dec 2022 update >> poke and life blog combined.

Hi guys. Sorry, but I have posted many threads on 2+2 because I am a fish ad don't know how to update threads. My bad. Anyway, I am a British mid stakes MTT player rand coach on the way up to high stakes who lives in Mexico. I'll keep EVERYTHING related to my blog on this thread. Thanks for reading and please connect with me about anything 😀. I hope 2022 was good and 2023 is better! Love from, Dan xx

Poker/life:

So, where to start. December has been weird. So far, I’ve moved from Mexico back to the UK (just for Christmas and a bit longer), and moved out of living with a close friend and fellow poker player. It kid of feels like a marriage break up, haha, but without anything going wrong. I’ve moved back to my hometown, with my mum, which is always strange to come back to, especially over Christmas. Of course, nothing much has changed, which in many ways is good because I love where I’m from and many people who live there. It’s starting to feel more and more different each year though. I love my friends, but every year now I get a real sense of melancholy when I come back. A “Glory Days” feeling. I’m 26, but I feel like distance, and the way I’ve chosen to live, has killed any chance of past relationships being the same. It’s hard looking at the people you care about and knowing how close you could be - knowing only potential - , but seeing a reality that is very different, where you barely see eachother (and have less in common). The old people you love are always there though - I Guess that’s what’s hard.

But, I don’t live a “normal” life. I only realise how different it is when I talk to people who are in very much caught in the conventional “wheel” of life. That’s 95% of, loved ones, friends, strangers. It’s strange to see yourself in those people. I’m the same. I see a parallel life where I’m in exactly their positions, surrounded by the same circles of people who you love, doing the same things, but simultaneously know that my choices don’t allow that life to manifest. What part is lucky that I’m different? I certainly see myself in them. But there’s another side where I feel I could never be the same; I consistently make different choices to those I have left behind. I can’t figure out what part is luck, and what I have chosen.

Life is starting to feel extremely exiting though. My plans future, how to get them, and current lifestyle is starting to connect together. It’s weird how powerful that is. Once the consistency really clicks too, everything has so much potential. The best part is that you never know your ceiling. In poker, business, consciousness, relationships. How do you know how good you can be at any one I you really try. If you realty find that balance? The Tao. I’ve only ever felt that once, at 17/18, where everything came together in what I wanted to do. On reflection that was the happiest time in my life as an adult.

And it’s coming back. I can feel it. I have bad days, but the pendulum is swinging back to balance and always will (I hope). I also know that I’ve found Tao/balance before. Growth will come -as it is doing - projects will be completed, relationships will be made, strengthened and rekindled,
and I will continue to crush mid stakes poker. The extent of that success is really unknown, which is the most exiting part of it all.

Poker is calling me, because now it serves a clear purpose. I know where it will take me and how I want it to look. I have a plan for growth, but don’t need it to work. Life will work if I stay in balance, and if nothing else this year, for the first time I’ve realised poker is not life, it’s just packed with potential. Look around, thank SOMETHING/SOMEONE that you’re alive, and see how you can get good at life. You’ll feel what’s important.

Happy Christmas, and may your 2023 be strong and exiting to live. Thank you to whoever reads this, and as always, please message me with any messages or updates of your lives <3 Lots of love, Dan. Take care xxx

P.S. 2023 new year bonus update is coming, with new ideas about new year, big picture goals, how to achieve them, and a review of 2022 in a few days. Should be one of the best blog entries, but I’m biased. <3